Spiritual Psychic Cynthia Killion

What happens when you ignore your intuition?

"Crash & Rebirth" Part 1: 
The Price of Ignoring Your Intuition
Written Feb. 6, 2009  By Cynthia Killion

Dear Friends, what an interesting morning it’s been. Come to think of it, what an interesting last two weeks it’s been.

            It all started when I trashed my car out on the ice a week ago Tuesday.  Actually, it all started a few hours before that, when I kept ignoring my intuition’s guidance to go lay down and take a nap.  It’s not like me at all to ignore my intuition.  In fact, I have done some pretty outrageous things in the name of listening to my intuition (like bringing home a wild Amazon parrot who was so untamed that no one in the bird store, and I mean NO ONE, could get him out of the cage without getting their fingers bloodied.)  So it’s not like I don’t listen to my intuition normally, and of course, I understand that the consequences of NOT listening are usually quite unpleasant, which is why ordinarily, I do listen.

            But this time it was different.

            Perhaps it was because I was sleep deprived in the first place.  Or perhaps it was because I was under the pressure of a deadline and had to get stuff done.  In any case, there was no reason at all that I couldn’t have stopped and taken a fifteen minute nap, which would have helped me to be a lot more alert when I went driving out on the ice later that day.  But I was defiant, and instead of just doing what the inner Voice told me to do, I put it off, and said that I would nap “later” instead.

            So when I went to leave to go get my son from school, I was a little bit less than bright & alert, and instead of slowing way down to take that icy turn at the end of the block, I just took it at my normal speed.  Which isn’t too fast at all, but apparently was way too fast for driving on ice, because I immediately began sliding. 

            The sliding in and of itself wouldn’t have been that bad if I hadn’t also immediately slammed my foot on the brake.  The braking wasn’t stopping me, so I did it again.  And again.  All the while, I just knew that this was the WRONG thing to do…I knew that if I just took my foot off the accelerator and let the car go a little, it would correct itself, since I wasn’t going that fast at all.  But because I was so tired, I couldn’t get my body to respond quickly enough to what my mind was thinking.

            Finally, I did get my foot off the break and the accelerator too.  But by that time, I had probably bounced off the curb three times already.  I was in a state of shock, so I couldn’t accurately access how bad my car had been damaged.  It seemed that I was OK, and that was good (very good), and the car didn’t look that bad (although my right front hubcap had busted off and was smashed in a kajillion pieces on the side of the road).  But it sure was driving funny, and judging by what was left of the curb (not much) I knew that I had crashed pretty hard. 

            Later I learned that my car now needed a new lower control arm, inner and outer tie rod ends, a new steel wheel, and of course, an alignment.  (Sigh.)  And oh, don’t forget, a new set of hubcabs.  Just a little bit more than $1,200 total.  Happy Freaking New Year, I told myself.

            Some people get angry at God when things like this happen. I wasn’t angry at God because I knew that S/he had tried to help me avoid this situation.  I was angry at myself for not listening.  I mean, after all, I of all people should know better….I am a professional psychic & spiritual teacher. 

            I was really “down” on myself for about an hour, but then I realized that regardless of the cause, I had just been through a very stressful & traumatic situation, and that I deserved my own sympathy.  So I immediately began to embrace my humanity, and poured deep waves of compassion & understanding upon myself. I also began “treating” with positive, loving affirmations, as well as flower & gemstone essences (“Rescue Remedy” from the Bach flower remedy line, plus “no fear”, “the works”, and “calm” from the Indigo Essences line).

            This car wreck took place just 3 days before the kick-off of the big “Awakening Your Intuition” fundraiser last weekend (for New Thought Church) that I was supposed to be organizing and hosting.  I still had to finish up a promotional gift CD for new comers and complete the print layout on the booklet for the new “Spirit Cards” oracle set that Kayra & I just released. 

            Not to mention, I needed to be on my best, most radiant and spiritually “glowing” behavior so that I could welcome people at Friday night’s “Meet the Teachers of New Thought Spaghetti Feed”, and teach an uplifting workshop with Charles Cox the next day on intuition.  And here I was, an emotional wreck, all because I had *ignored* my intuition and wrecked my car! 

            To be honest, I wasn’t sure if I was even deserving enough to teach workshops on intuition anymore, and considered asking Charles to teach the whole thing.  But then I realized that this was just that “old voice” of self- criticism coming up again, and that falling off the “Intuition bandwagon” just one time hardly diminishes an entire lifetime spent listening to the Inner Voice.  Besides, it would give me something interesting & compelling to talk about when I told my students that there can be serious consequences to NOT listening to your intuition.

            Somehow, I made it through the weekend OK.  In fact, as far as I could tell, I really was my spiritually glowing & radiant self, and *was* able to teach an inspiring & uplifting workshop with Charles.  The weekend was very successful.  Many people who didn’t know they had intuition before discovered that they did, and others discovere d new layers & dimensions of their abilities. Plus, everyone just seemed to be having a good time.  Not to mention, we raised over $2,500 for the church….

Cynthia Killion * Spiritual Psychic *
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